I have revised my about page 67 times.
Some of those revisions were simple edits, a comma here, an extra word there. But some were big overhauls. My story, and the story of my brand, changing, evolving and adjusting as I changed, evolved and adjusted.
I remember starting this site and putting my first pages together, the about page was the hardest for me to write. I was resistant, didn’t know how to talk about myself. I was almost too close to my own life to know what to put on the page.
But it had to be done so I wrote my story as best I could.
I did that again…
Doing so was a journey to rework the writing but (like everything), the revisions were more of a personal journey than anything else.
Because if I’m not careful, I can easily become a cuttlefish (did you know they are better at changing colors than chameleons?) by people pleasing, by going with the flow, even when doing so went against my gut. I’ve stayed in jobs too long. Relationships too long. I haven’t spoken up when I wanted to. I’ve played safe, comfortable, under the radar.
When this happened, I felt lost, uncomfortable and insecure. So as I got older it became my mission to trust myself and to cultivate honesty and courage.
And beautifully, writing and creating this site, was the perfect gift to make that happen.
Now looking at my 67 revisions, I see how each one of them was a shedding.
A shedding of words and phrases that felt like the cuttlefish me.
A shedding of the ideas and shoulds that I had taken on as my own, but really were not me.
A shedding of the parts of myself I had outgrown and were no longer serving.
And, also I see how each one of those revisions was a strengthening.
A strengthening of my own edges.
A strengthening of my writing, and myself.
A strengthening of my courage to follow my intuition, even when it’s uncomfortable to do so.
Which is why, as I revise again, I think about how each word we put to page asks us both shed and strengthen.
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The challenge (and the ease) is to create from our internal compass. That tiny voice that deletes a sentence because it doesn’t feel quite right. The tiny voice that tells us to go forward even when we are scared, afraid, and the path is unknown.
This compass is what oriented me to starting this site in the first place.
It’s what fuels my fire for entrepreneurship, for writing, for finding myself through both.
Because to follow the path of creating online, we have to find a way to stand out, to share ourselves, and connect with others. And to do that, we have no choice but to look deeply into what gifts we can bring to the table. We have no choice but to create something that means something to us and that we have an opinion on.
In terms of our own becoming, what matters has nothing to do with what we are creating and it has everything to do with the process of creating it.
Because through each round revisions…
We become gentler on ourselves.
We become fierce in creating through adversity.
We become confident in our quirks, and our uniqueness.
We become aware of these things in the first place.
So, if you are feeling pulled to start a project, to pave your own path, to start a business, to write a blog, to redefine success for yourself, start now. Start before you’re ready. Start with the first draft and know you will come home to your beautiful core with each word you write.
Know that there will be more revisions and that’s perfectly expected. When you jump in and trust yourself, choose yourself and follow that guiding voice, it will take you to unexpectedly beautiful places that not only serve others, but whole-heartedly serve your highest self.