When I get in a fight with myself it is not always pretty.
Often the altercation is a verbal one. An inner dialog rooted in doubt and fear about expressing myself through my writing.
In those moments, I must fight to move forward, to stand up for my idea and inspiration. I must fight to get writing.
This kind of inner standoff is both productive and counter productive.
Productive because when you write through doubt, you come out stronger as a writer and as a person.
Counter productive because you can get trapped in creative ruts and feel stunted going forward.
A New Fight
I want to reframe the idea that our inner show-down is a bad thing. Rather I like to think of it as a battle that fuels the creative fires. It is one that is powerful and exciting. One that is necessary for bringing your work into the world.
For something new to be born, we need to experience tension.
Next time you feel the inner fists start to fly, fall in love.
Fall in love with the fight, the doubt, the fear.
Fall in love with the excitement and potential that inevitably comes along for the ride.
Creative abundance is alive in the in-between space.
It is there when you are stretched so thin but somehow make things work.
It is there when you have an idea to start something, to be vulnerable, expressive and raw.
Creative abundance is there when your inner voice tells you to create even when you struggle to do so.
When I face my inner creative demons, lethargy takes over, a heaviness sinks into my limbs. I feel resistance and unsure about what to write about.
I have found that the best thing I can do is be present in the experience.
The experience is an invitation to shift your thinking to fully feel the excitement and potential of creating. It’s an invitation to feel the fear that comes forward when you are on to something good.
Create from this space. Learn from this space. Grow from this space.
Hold the experience with compassion and love. Hold it in the lovely reality that it is part of a larger creative process.
Set Yourself Up to Feel Uncomfortable
Often when we are uncomfortable, we do what we can to get away from the difficult feeling.
You jump on social media, check your phone, go for a bag of chips (maybe this is just me, because I totally do this, especially if they are Classic Lays…), or do something to alleviate the discomfort. If even for a moment.
Instead, see these feelings as creative fuel. See the discomfort as one of two sticks being rubbed together to create fire.
Don’t run. Feel.
Don’t run. Write.
Don’t run. Explore.
Don’t run. Expand.
The feeling will wash through you. You can create from this place. There is power and aliveness here.
Next time you are stuck, lean into the feeling of stuckness.
Lean into whatever feeling is underneath. Breathe, be curious, write about it. And most importantly feel it.
Do what you don’t want to do.
You will land on more solid ground than you could have imagined.
Over to You
Have you experienced doubt or fear and felt fueled by it? Share your thoughts and wisdom in the comments below.