The other day I took the day off work, cleared my schedule and excitedly planned to write and revamp my website content. I went to bed with lots of ideas, feeling expanded, and anticipatory about the process.
I woke up eager and started to get to work. However, nothing seemed good enough. I couldn’t get into a rhythm. My sense of expansion quickly turned into a feeling of contraction.
When in this place of contraction I felt uninspired, the work lost its luster. I started looking around online for inspiration but was met with feelings of comparison and frustration.
What I came to realize is that feelings of expansion are often followed by contraction. It’s part of the natural rhythm of life, the natural order of creativity.
What triggers the contraction is often an internal energetic block that’s connected to a limiting belief.
These feelings can be held in the body. they can be held in our thought processes without even realizing it.
Typically the bigger the expansion, the bigger the contraction.
This can look like shutting down, losing inspiration or motivation. It can show up as self-doubt, impostor syndrome, or many other ways we can feel blocked.
When in the place of contraction a way to get out of it is to deeply feel it. To let the energy move rather than avoiding it.
What works for me is Reiki, getting in my body (going for a run or hitting the yoga mat–here’s my favorite YouTube yoga teacher) journaling, locating where I’m feeling the contraction in my body and breathing deeply into this place until I feel something shift.
This is easier said than done. I’ve tried to make my feelings go away with affirmations or positive thinking. I’ve tried to latch them onto something I can distract myself with. Being present and allowing flow is something that’s an ongoing journey.
If you find yourself in a contracted place or feeling cut off from your creativity, I invite you to find a practice that works for you that lets you sit with the feeling. This facilitates energetic movement.
(Hint: often it’s giving up the fight and letting what’s up just be. When we stop fighting it, whatever it is, the tension releases and energy can move.)
When we are feeling uninspired, uncreative, or disconnected, there’s potential for a big expansion of life force. Creativity will flow, ideas will blossom, movement will happen.
The crazy thing is though, it’s often the expansion that’s toughest to hold. We can become comfortable with the stories we tell ourselves, the blocks that live in our minds and bodies, the sense of limitation in our experience. These in many ways have helped us stay contained and safe. The expansion triggers the unknown. It triggers fear and anxiety, which can often come immediately after excitement and possibility.
Always know they are two sides of the same coin. Our work is to move the energy so we don’t get stuck in one place or the other. It’s the oscillation that creates life. It’s the tapping into movement that creates creative flow.
Enjoy this post, any ideas come to mind? Please share, I’d love to hear in the comments. Also, if you have a question you want answered, or a topic you want explored, let me know! I’m starting a new series where I answer reader questions.